
Originally Posted by
Gibby
I'm in the beginnings of a long-distance relationship with a fellow FAFer, and I often find myself thinking about it a lot. It's also quite obvious to my family that I am thinking about things, and they always pipe up and ask "what's on your mind?" I tell them nothing, and it kinda hurts. They once told me that they'd still love me if I were gay (back on my birthday) but I just cannot bring myself to believe them. They seem so confident in the knowledge that I'm straight, anyway. Hell, it's almost as if they're trying to make me NOT gay, by pointing out pretty girls and joking about other gays seen on the street, etc. Stop doing that, family. It's a pain.
It also makes me wonder what my SO feels, I worry about him. It just sucks too much having to live a lie. It sucks for me and others, so naturally it does for him. It's a struggle for me and others, so him, too. I can't wait until I can finally stop doing so, and be honest with everyone around me. I'm sure that like other people and I, he feels the same. Mesad.
/vent