It is kind of odd, given I don't have a very large family, and that these deaths happened on both my mother's and father's side, and with an aunt related by marriage...and that my brother is adopted. Nature and nurture, perhaps...and yet my (immediate) family looks and seems sane enough, to all outward appearances. But yeah, it does seem depression runs through my family, in more ways than seem likely. I also agree that the 'impulsive' nature of such states is a huge, understated part; a sure and quick means at hand has shown to be very highly correlated. Guns and suicide: Harvard Study:This paints a decent outline; there's lot of literature out there on this, and it's not always cut and dry, by any means: www.hsph.harvard.edu: Suicide Well, having fought at points to stay alive, I've avoided guns...I think if I took up something similar, it'd be archery; maybe become Robin Hood! I think that'd be more fun, I'd be a good Robin Hood.