It's okay. I don't hold grudges. And while my paranoia is triggered by people I don't believe they do it consciously. It's just... you know... when your mind constantly says "People hate me, people lie to me, people want to hurt me." all it takes is something to make you believe that and it's done.
Honestly, I should be the one apologizing. Paranoia or not, all I could think of is trying to hurt people, and I did hurt people. And I'm not at all proud of that.
I was using generated passwords for my messenger accounts and then I lost them. I'd been relying on auto-login to keep accessing IMs for a long time, but needing fresh windows installs finally locked me out of them.
I'm still active on Skype, if you use that. Otherwise I suppose I should start making new accounts and reconnecting to people.
"this is actually the beginning of my plan, and a former life.....
You used to homeless? I didn't strike a chord or anything did I? Of course I can see the benefits, I mean the housing must have been cheap, and that electric bill wow. The weather in California probably helps too, being homeless on the Gulf coast involves dealing with 90+ degree weather, gigantic insects, thunderstorms everyday during the summer and fall, and the occasional apocalyptic hurricane.