I see you're killing yourself because of icon...
Why don't you like it? This is nice icon.
Want to get a better icon?
...Then improve your drawing, don't be lazy.
I also finally gonna start doing drawing... So, just get up, don't give up and go do it.
If you continue staying like that - you will get nothing.
So JUST DO IT!
You can talk to me whenever you want... You'll don't regret it.