Gronix
Catless Cat Lady
I guess I wanted to understand the mindset of someone else who likes it but does not face this problem.
Oh man, I sure like many things mentioned in this thread in one way or another, sexual fantasies can be really fucked up, but I think of them as perfectly fine, I don't hate myself for finding something appealing, or anyone else.
That is, as long as these things stay a fantasy.
I also happen to be schizophrenic, but it's not something I'm comfortable talking about, and it's something I eternally struggle against, so it never defines me.
Separation of reality, and fantasy is a very, very important thing, for everyone, and especially anyone who suffers from any kind of psychosis.
Those.. vivid imagery, sexual fantasies, voices, they're all in my dysfunctional head, and whatever roleplay I imagine, whatever art I see and think about also have no grasp on real life.
This way, I just give the middle finger to my wild, wild imagination, let it fly free, and think whatever it wants, since nothing of it really matters, it's my ugly pet that makes life harder, but at the same time it's pretty interesting to look at at times.
To help this separation, I not only focus, but I obsess over ration and the material world, with being dead set on finding out the truths I can to shed delusions.
But then again, I'm an amoral, near-apathetic sociopath, emotions made me volatile, they do not anymore.
Despite that, I still don't have any incentive whatsoever to live these fantasies in real life.
Enjoy your fetishes in your head, with art, roleplay, whatever you like, it's for you to enjoy, don't be afraid of yourself.
Lives of people matter more than imagined people's.