It's full of Tl;drs, but in short: Yes, I hate it.
Physically, I'm not an old wise person, as the age is almost always being mentioned talking about life. But I'm more than proud to say that I've seen and done everything, if you exclude illegal stuff.
I have archieved everything possible (or maybe further) within my limits and have lost all I have archived, and repeated the same pattern with different components for my whole not-so-long life. They have changed my personality multiple times and now I don't even know myself. I used to be religious, but now I'm not. I feel like being toyed. The only thing left is either going even wilder (maybe test the limit of law) or just to leave the world (aka. death). For now I don't have specific determination or precise plans for either paths, or I'm lazy just for now.
I'm still alive, but I don't feel alive. And since I'm alive, I'm being challenged to higher walls with various but the same patterns, which I'm sick of. At least I'm not harming any third-parties so that's great enough.
I have 7 or 6 lives left now, death was beside me ever since my birth, haha. Sorry if it wasn't funny.
Edit: Those life consultants keep telling you dos and don'ts without any working logics, just as if they haven't experienced and/or don't even know the feelings the targets suffer from. They must only put those who actually have overcome these feelings and stuff to work, which I think is impossible, hah. Guess I'm not one of their stereotypical targets? I'm done with consultants, such a waste of time and money.
Edit 2: I love telling stories, ask me if you want more. And be prepared not to be depressed or anything if so. I don't wanna take other lives away with me. Anyways, there are tons that I can't even completely categorize. Oh, and feel free to know more if you got 9 lives like I did!
