Feels like I’m getting lonelier and lonelier by each day... I’ve lost so many friends throughout the years and my current ones live quite a bit away, and now with work I have even less time to meet them. I also feel like the black sheep of the family, my parents have always been tough on me to succeed which I’ve failed almost every time. My mom is also mentally unwell and takes out her problems on me which makes me feel even more alienated. At school and other work places I’ve had throughout the years I’ve always had a hard time fitting in, never seem to find my place and settle in properly. I just want to find people that really love me as I am, and who I can love back unconditionally. Feels so awful in the soul going to sleep every night in your cold bed knowing that no one around you cares about you existing in the same place and time as them.
Good God Ace, it's like, every time.....
Hey, it's old drunken uncle Cyan O. Every time you PM me I want to give you a huge hug.
My dude, time zones mean we never really get to reply to each other because it's always "hey Ace, I'm here let's talk!" And I'm off to bed or some such.
I've been in that exact situation and I wish I could be there for you more.
Please know it will get better, maybe not by much but it will.
one day, by random happenstance perhaps,you will find a place you can finally fit in.
but as is the case, I'm off to bed cuz I live in NY and I need to be up in 6hours for work.
Ace, you for somewhere. Whether that's here or somewhere else, you fit, and life sucks and it's hard, but sometimes it doesn't and people can and will be here for you.
I'm really nihilistic in my viewpoint but I'm an optimistic nihilist.
I wish I could help you more but please don't lose hope man. You and a ton of others are lonely and feel alone, but we aren't and places like this exist to show us we are not and others exist who want to share our experiences.
Stay strong Ace.