Confessions thread
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Mr. Sparta
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I could use a snack. With some Maugryph Chai Tea. Otherwise, I feel better after venting last night. Sorry.
FenrirDarkWolf
Trapped in a Lucid Eclipse
*gives many hugs* Okay pokesenpai
Alexxx-Returns
The Sergal that Didn't Vore
I confess that I have a confession I want to post here, but have refrained so far on the tiny off-chance that the person it concerns would visit this site and be upset by it.
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Unless they're also a furry or have access to your bookmarks / browser history, then I wouldn't worry about it.
Schwimmwagen
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just use white text within a post. I use it all the time but nobody notices it. i will destroy each and every one of you
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Unless you have a professionally calibrated monitor.
YOU CAN HIDE NOTHING FROM ME.
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Uncledaddy
i feel like my dreams are too big for me. like i have so many huge aspirations that i'm going to end up just wasting my life accomplishing nothing, or be completely unfulfilled because i had to settle for something lesser. i will die as i lived, disappointing either myself or someone else. probably both.
It is someone on these forums.. that's why I'm not sure if I should specifically name them.
Chuchi
Where'd the time go?
Ahahaaaa, summarizes my life perfectly, as well. I have no encouraging words, just know you're not alone. *resumes moping in bed*
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Uncledaddy
Ya know, this is one of them things where not being alone just makes me feel bad for other people who have the same problem...
come to think of it, i have no idea what encouraging words would even be. all i've ever heard in my life was depressing people saying "well your dreams are stupid and so are you, and you need to not even try because doing things MY way is the only way that makes sense" and crazy people saying "U CAN DO ANYTING U PUT UR MIND TO REACH FOR DA STARS blah blah blah *tries to butter me up with empty compliments*"
neither one has been particularly helpful.
Chuchi
Where'd the time go?
Well, ugh, I dunno what to say then. Usually I am a font of inspiration of some shit, or at least some of the others around here would have me believe that.
I dunno, I just meant to say that you weren't alone in feeling like this, which can often intensify the feelings because it seems like everyone else is doing fine and dandy, then why can't I, you know?
Fuck. I don't even know how to fucking articulate what I want to say at present. Nothing is sounding right.
I'm not trying to be all 'Do anything, sky's the limit' whatever, I just wanted to point out I felt similar.
You don't need to feel bad for me or whatever.
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Uncledaddy
i'm not saying you were being one of those people; just griping about people in my life. :'D
seems like nobody really knows what to do or say about it, either because they haven't experienced it or because they're in the middle of it, themselves.
but i do apologize if'n i have just quashed an attempt at inspiration.
I confess that, at my worst, I'm as idealistic, childish, naif, fearful, and too eager to please in general. My biggest failing, most of the time, is that I can't defeend my own ideas for fear of making people angry (there are exceptions, of course), and can't follow them through to the last point for fear of making them too concrete and thus easier to attack.
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Evan of Phrygia
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i can't say too much on the topic, but my particular perspective has always been "the sky's the limit, so start building a ladder"
it's probably a bit overtly idealistic, but i think to some extent coddling those who have dreams without telling them how to get there is the sole failure of idealists in this sort of situation. some of my best work came from constant criticism and an inability to accept my own choices as good enough. and frankly, i've found that at least for music, fewer and fewer people believe in talent as a real factor of success so much as talent as a result of doing the right work earlier and faster than anyone else. and even then, the measurement dies out at some point. but either way, the key component that can and should be the gateway is the amount of work put into a goal, and it's worth noting that it simply isn't easy unless you do it poorly
i don't know. i've always disliked that people make following your dreams out to be easy. that's the beef i have.
this tangent is also more applicable to craft than to say "i want this job at this place". there's a way, but generally you have to acknowledge what makes it a difficult thing to attain, and if it's not for you, then it's good to be aware of that. idk, real life works differently at times
it's probably a bit overtly idealistic, but i think to some extent coddling those who have dreams without telling them how to get there is the sole failure of idealists in this sort of situation. some of my best work came from constant criticism and an inability to accept my own choices as good enough. and frankly, i've found that at least for music, fewer and fewer people believe in talent as a real factor of success so much as talent as a result of doing the right work earlier and faster than anyone else. and even then, the measurement dies out at some point. but either way, the key component that can and should be the gateway is the amount of work put into a goal, and it's worth noting that it simply isn't easy unless you do it poorly
i don't know. i've always disliked that people make following your dreams out to be easy. that's the beef i have.
this tangent is also more applicable to craft than to say "i want this job at this place". there's a way, but generally you have to acknowledge what makes it a difficult thing to attain, and if it's not for you, then it's good to be aware of that. idk, real life works differently at times
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Chuchi
Where'd the time go?
No need to apologize.
Usually, when someone is down and experiencing a problem or state of mind I myself am very familiar with, I can come up with these nice, encouraging things to say to cheer them up a little bit, not looking to turn their life around, just to ease their burden for a moment's pause. But I'm so far into this pit of self pity and constantly worrying that everything I do and say isn't good enough anymore, that I can't even come up with a simple 'hang in there, sweets, shit gets better' without it feeling fucking dry and insincere.
But like... yeah. I hope you feel better soon and shake off that funk. It's a hollowing feeling, when you come to believe your dreams are too big for you and that, no matter how hard you claw after them, they will always get away from you. Instead of working on building to them anyway, one instead spends their time pondering why they fancied those dreams to begin with, at least in my case. And then it takes me an awful long time to dislodge my head from my ass and get back to work.
My greatest fear is that I will die and no one will remember me or care to. But, I think possibly equal or greater to that fear is the terrifying thought that I will die and my legacy will be one of disappointment. "She had such potential. What a waste. She did nothing good with her life." Etc, etc. I hope that, when I'm gone, my family won't be disappointed in me.
Mr. Sparta
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Did it taste funny?
jtrekkie
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Not really.
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Uncledaddy
well, sayin' it when you can't mean it is worse than sayin' nothin', and i don't think anybody oughtta blame you for going through a rough patch. we can't always be the ones giving the inspiration.
yeah, that about sums it up. i more or less get tired of reaching for something that seems impossible, and it only seems more impossible the more i have people around me tellin' me how stupid it is--and the only people on my side tend to be the ones who don't know what the hell they're talking about. fortunately, i'm rational enough to understand that there IS a middle ground; it's just a matter of figurin' out how to stay on it. here's hopin' you got enough lube to get yourself on track again, too.
that's another thing, people around me keep telling me i'm wasting my "potential" because i'm not doing what they think i should do. they completely disregard my wishes and brush them off as silly or immature, when really my goals are no more impossible than the ones they've set for me. i don't think i could care less if i go out disappointing those people; in fact, i hope i do. but lord have mercy if i don't reach my own goals or at least something similar that i can be happy with, 'cause if i die and they all stand gloating over my grave, i'm gonna come back to life just so i can die again of shame. wasting my potential IS a big fear for me... but what i view as my potential and what my family (pretty much the only people i get to interact with on a regular basis) views as my potential are apparently two very different things. I would hafta say my biggest fear in that regard, though, is being remembered as something I'm not. right now, something i know i'm not is all most people see when they look at me, and finding a way to show them what i really am is the hardest obstacle i think i've ever faced. and i've faced some damn obstacles, lemme tell ya.
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