Confessions thread

[Muln]

A True Friend.
One can only wish.

 

[UrsusArtist]

Hugs, Red. You're an amazing person to do what you did.

 

[Butters Shikkon]

I care for all my friends deeply. I try to be there for them. Sometimes it's in their darkest times of need. Depression, as familiar as I am with it, always tends to be the most tiring of issues. It's weary and breaks my heart. Someone I know called for, what I think, what was meant to be the last time. I made some calls and he has been taken to the ER. His mother messaged me and said that he was being serious with the idea this time, and that she was grateful.


I shudder to think what would have been if I didn't call him back. Which I considered. I had every right to not call.


I just hope it makes a difference in the long run. People have to want to help themselves, and all the phone calls in the world can't help that.

Oh thank god.

 

[Mr. Sparta]

I've been daydreaming of getting bear hugs.

They sound so fluffy.

 

[Atemis]

Is depression becoming more common in society, or is it just more prevalent because of the computer age?
Either way you did a heroic thing Red.
I really wish high school health classes would have a month or couple weeks dedicated to depression prevention and awareness, it really is becoming a pandemic.

 

[Crunchy_Bat]

I confess I feel like a terrible person when I think about how much I hate the stress my suicidal friends add to my life, It's terrible to think of people who are in such a bad place and need support in that way. Yet I still find myself thinking about how I wish I didn't have to be there for those friends, and then immediately feel like shit afterwords. I always make myself someone my friends can come to and talk to and i love them all....but the stress, the worrying, all the what if they do it? How can they think of leaving everything? Keeps me pulling on my hair, I hope no more of my friends go through with it, I have only experienced one real attempt and I couldn't do anything to change their mind. I confess I hate the stress of worrying about your friends dieing, and hate that I have to have so many of those friends, ARRGH.

 

[Atemis]

I confess I feel like a terrible person when I think about how much I hate the stress my suicidal friends add to my life, It's terrible to think of people who are in such a bad place and need support in that way. Yet I still find myself thinking about how I wish I didn't have to be there for those friends, and then immediately feel like shit afterwords. I always make myself someone my friends can come to and talk to and i love them all....but the stress, the worrying, all the what if they do it? How can they think of leaving everything? Keeps me pulling on my hair, I hope no more of my friends go through with it, I have only experienced one real attempt and I couldn't do anything to change their mind. I confess I hate the stress of worrying about your friends dieing, and hate that I have to have so many of those friends, ARRGH.

Wanting to leave, yet staying anyway is what makes you a good friend.

 

[Crunchy_Bat]

Wanting to leave, yet staying anyway is what makes you a good friend.

:') I hope so.

 

[UrsusArtist]

I've been daydreaming of getting bear hugs.

They sound so fluffy.

Oh come here... *hugs*

 

[Pyper]

I hope everything turns out all right for you Red. I have never been on your end because I have always been dealing with the suicidal temptations on my end. When depression to the point of suicide takes over, the stress that is put on my friends trying to help me isn't really something that crosses my mind. It makes me realize that I have kept my friends worried for way too long and can come full circle back into my depression. That is one of the things that has pushed me to seek help.

 

[Muln]

I like bears too

 

[UrsusArtist]

Bear hugs for everyone!

I confess, I wish I had been able to go to work today (schools got preemptively canceled here in NJ for the blizzard that never hit us). The kids are going to be all jacked up because of this change in routine...it will be an interesting day tomorrow.

 

[Taikugemu]

Sometimes i feel like a terrible person.

But i guess i am a terrible person these times.

 

[Kazolas]

I'm starting to really dislike getting recognition for good deeds and/or accomplishments. I'll give yall some examples (which I will also dislike since it's like bragging but whatever)
1) Back in December, I was at a holiday party for my job and this drunk guy starts grinding up against my friend's ass. We have no idea who he is. We both notice him right away but I'm not sure if she is okay with him doing that. I keep my eye on them for a few minutes. The guy kept trying to put his hand around her waist and she kept pushing away. I finally saw this with my eyes 100% no doubts. I shove my hand between them and push against his chubby/sweaty chest. I look him in the eye and he walks away. Holy shit I was filled with so much adrenaline. She thanked me but I started to feel bad. I felt amazing but I also felt bad. I didn't want to seem like I was an alpha male coming to the aid of a damsel in distress.
2) I got nominated to be in the nursing honor society for my school, unexpectedly, 2 weeks ago. Only a few of us were nominated and so now I'm in the awkward position where I feel bad because I only studied for maybe 10 hours total last semester while many of my classmates put in well over 50+ hours. I also don't want the image of being a super student. (Not to mention that I now have to do an additional project to get in the thing and if I don't do it I'll look like a lazy bum.)

Ugh even now I'm debating hitting the "Post Quick Reply" button. I guess that's what the point of this thread is though lol
#yolo

 

[Taikugemu]

Oh, i kinda dislike being praised too.

Damnit brain.

 

[Deleted member 93706]

I also dislike being praised, but I hate being ratted on for minutia.

 

[Evan of Phrygia]

i like cats

 

[Percy-Lyn]

A number of confessions for this topic since I've felt like posting for a while.

1) I am honestly confused as to whether I'm antisocial or have social anxiety, or if I have both. I think I have some painful mix of both, yet I still want to be personable.
2) I am absurdly self-conflicted. I hate people. But I also love people. Also I'm stupidly selfish but I care more about other people than myself.
3) I have something of a martyr complex that I've been fighting for the past year or so.
4) I am apathetic about pretty much anything and everything regarding myself, but I also seek approval from others.
5) I am ashamed and disgusted of being a sexual being even though, or possibly even because of, the fact that I am a complete pervert.

There will probably be more later.

 

[Muln]

That ain't cool dude. Seriously, That ain't cool.

 

[RedSavage]

i like cats

I saw that and I still have the quote. For your sake I won't post it.


But What you do to yourself comes off a lot like my old drug habit. I deserved to ruin my body. I didn't deserve better health or a future. I wanted to die young, preferably OD'ing.

You need to treat it for what it is. An addiction. It's something that makes you feel good. The thing about addictions, is that you can only truly quit them for yourself. Me? I didn't start taking drugs for my parents. For my job or lack of a social life. So why would I quit for them? The answer is that I wasnt, and didn't.

I had to quit for myself and I hope you can find it in you to do that likewise.
Please note me if you'd like to talk. Don't bullshit about it either. If it's one thing I do know, it's addictions. And the pain and endorphin rush of what your habit hets you is nothing short of addiction.

 

[Muln]

Good thing I wasn't the only one who read that. God only knows the dude is bleeding to his death as we speak.

 

[Percy-Lyn]

I saw it as well. I'd suggest taking up Redsavage on her offer. Talking helps a lot, believe me.

Also, one more confession for the night; the topic of addictions coming up made me feel like posting it.

I used to not be so perverse; in fact I was darn near asexual. Had romantic attraction (and was a diehard romanticist) but was fairly averse to sexual interaction. After dealing with my first serious heartbreak though, I became addicted to adult-oriented content as a sort of "sex for solace" for somebody hopeless at sexual interaction.

http://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Main/SexForSolace

 

[KyryK]

Good thing I wasn't the only one who read that. God only knows the dude is bleeding to his death as we speak.

He's not, that's all i feel i should say about it right now.

 

[Mr. Sparta]

Oh no...

 

[Muln]

I take suicide threats/jokes seriously (My sister tried to kill herself because of daddy issues)
I'm not good at giving advise. Most can be said to people who refuses to listen. It's nice to have people here who are sensible and good at giving advises