I confess that I am slightly upset that the band I love has gotten more popular so quickly all of the sudden. Why?
Because it was... my band. And now there are new people, suddenly coming out of nowhere, people I do not care about or know, stating that they like this band as well.
Really? Were you there when the band was still taking it's baby steps? Did you buy the early albums so they could keep playing and improving? I bet you haven't even listened to their early production. You jumped on the wagon when they started to become more popular. And you call yourself a fan. I spit on thee! I went across the globe to a metropolitan city I have never been in before, ever, with a population greater than the population of my entire country, to listen to this band that came from the same country as myself!
( All this was possible because I got the best birthday gift ever! ♥♥♥♥♥ )
... I am aware that feeling this way even in the slightest is completely irrational and makes me sound like a giant hipster. Should I not be happy that the band I love is doing great, doing great music and people love it?
It is a bit of mixed feelings, I mean I am very happy to see they are doing great. But at the same time I feel a little... jealous. Which is stupid, I don't OWN the band. I wasn't the very first fan they had. I don't know the band members personally. But still, I feel a hint of jealousy. Which is silly.
Despite all that, I am more happy than I am jealous. I am so very happy they are doing great! And I hope they get bigger and get more fans until the entire world knows them.
But I will feel a bit jealous.
Just a tiny bit~