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Aaron
I'm not too sure who to reach out to anymore for the things I am going through. So I decided to post it here.
For being so eager to love and easy to give emotion there really hasn't been many in my life willing to take it from me. And I guess it's starting to take its toll.
I have no family who understands the context of why I am feeling the way I do. I feel like sometimes I wish it would all end. So that from the moment I tried to dedicate myself to the people I thought I could love will vanish and all the pain and loneliness could dissappear with it.
I have few freinds, and they mean the absolute world to me now. The ones who understand what I am going through seem to say arbitrary things that don't really pry out the thorn that is aching so badly.
I feel defeated and useless now. Having gone through many deaths and loss in my life, somehow this lingering failure to love the ones who I truly wish to care for, is somehow so very much worse.
I do need support and love. As much as I whish to give it. But in that respect I am truly alone and I no longer know what to do to fix it.
For being so eager to love and easy to give emotion there really hasn't been many in my life willing to take it from me. And I guess it's starting to take its toll.
I have no family who understands the context of why I am feeling the way I do. I feel like sometimes I wish it would all end. So that from the moment I tried to dedicate myself to the people I thought I could love will vanish and all the pain and loneliness could dissappear with it.
I have few freinds, and they mean the absolute world to me now. The ones who understand what I am going through seem to say arbitrary things that don't really pry out the thorn that is aching so badly.
I feel defeated and useless now. Having gone through many deaths and loss in my life, somehow this lingering failure to love the ones who I truly wish to care for, is somehow so very much worse.
I do need support and love. As much as I whish to give it. But in that respect I am truly alone and I no longer know what to do to fix it.