*still doesn’t see color*
*kneels (awkwardly)*
Well, secondarily, yes. I hope that fessing up and acknowledging guilt and injustice committed is my highest priority, but... sort of.
*pauses, considering what to say*
I was wrong. In my wrath I claimed to be justified in the exec—accidental—*sighs* the murder of my surrogate son. My justifications were flawed. ...I had no right putting him into a position where he’d even come close to death, much less directly causing it myself. For this, I see no other just outcome than my own execution. I recognize this now.
*closes eyes, pained*
*regains composure and looks Metavasi directly in the eye*
That said, I strongly disagree with your mother’s methods. Anyone can be tortured into saying anything, and cursing me until I cooperated is not true repentance. A lesser man than I could easily simply say he’d learned and go about his business afterwards (albeit, slightly more carefully). Which is why I’m thankful that I’ve been honorable person who hasn’t yet broken my word, so you can trust me when I say that, on whatever honor I haven’t forfeited by my shameful actions that day, I truly believe what I’ve said prior to be true. And I swear to take good precautions, lest I slay another for any reason besides crimes actually deserving of death, to keep my admittedly excessive “hot-headed”ness in check. And... while I don’t personally believe emotions have much to do with morality, it might help you to also communicate that I feel... *swallows* quite guilty. I’ve had an exercise in empathy on my journeys, and I’ve learned much.
Thank you for hearing me to the end. I’m sure your time as a god is exceedingly valuable.