-I'm my own biggest critic. I regularly tell myself I am the worst at everything I do. The worst writer, worst drawer, worst musician, worst student. I even convinced myself that suicide would be a good thing for me.
-My self-esteem is very low. I have no self confidence at all, but from the look on my face and my actions, you wouldn't really know it. Honest to God, I'm so freaking insecure, its not even funny. I have at times resorted to putting others down in order to prop myself up. As someone who was bullied from elementary through high school, its sad that I have at times become a bully in order to feel good about myself.
-I enjoy spending time alone in my room instead of interacting with people. In all seriousness, I don't think I have any friends in life because I don't/can't foster relationships or rather I forgot how to.
-I'm very judgmental. I have a set of standards I hold others too and judge them unfairly. For instance, I think people who smoke pot and drink are the worst people in the world.
-I don't ask for help. I truly believe that if I ask for help, people will look down on me and above all, I hate being pitied; that just makes me mad.
-I don't' express my feelings. When I was depressed, I told no one because I didn't want people to think I was "crazy".
-I have identity issues. Like the OP, I am also bi, but have come to reconcile my faith with my sexuality. If God truly has a problem with it, why did he make me this way? That said, I have only told my cousins that I'm bi because I don't want to feel "weird" or seen as abnormal. My mother wouldn't care neither would my father if he was still living, but I can't tell her the truth for some reason.
-I lack empathy for others. I'm not saying I don't/can't emphasize, its just that I struggle with it and at times will come off as cold and heartless.
-I'm kind of a self-hating. I'm not saying I hate being black, but we do alot of embarrassing shit and I don't like being lumped in with the hood rats and thugs.
-I'm afraid to try new things.
-I'm scared of change.
Yes, I know I'm screwed up mentally and emotionally, but it was worse a few years ago.