So what I'm reading is a person who doesn't want to give up but also doesn't have the courage to complete his goal?
I'm sorry but I have to disagree. Pineapplez, you don't deserve to be happy if you can't solve your problems. Especially since your "problem" is not a problem at all and you are only perpetuating your own self-loathing with your actions. Your fear is irrational and stupid. The day you realize that and take your life into your own hands your life will be easier.
If you do not understand the concept of brotherhood you should not be here (this is a community). I especially don't think it was particularly appropriate for to respond that way to someone trying to encourage you. And maybe just maybe if you had a sibling you would better understand to talk to someone instead of chickening out.
Any inkling of sympathy I had for you is gone. Have fun hating yourself.
Lyar bringing the forest fires in here aw shit son
Here's my 2 cents...this is what being a teenager is like. It's extreme emotions wrapped up with a good healthy dose of WTF?!?.
And for telling your parents, think of it as ripping off a bandaid or jumping into a cold pool. Just Do It!! Get it over with!! That's the only way to get all of this out of your head. Your parents only want the best for you (I know it doesn't always feel that way, but they do, trust me.) So, time to man up, and just tell them. Period.
The rest of what your feeling (no time due to projects, no time for the fun stuff you want to do), is total human nature. So, get used to it, cause it really doesn't get any better in adulthood, except that you are the one making the rules. But then you have to try & listen to yourself.
Sorry, but you sound like a whiny little bitch. Okami calls everybody brother, cause he sees everyone as a fellow human being. He wasnt literally calling you his brother. You have no idea how precious a sibling relationship can be. I have 2 older brothers & my favorite one has been dead for over 10yrs. The other one wants nothing to do with me cause he is just an asshole, plain & simple. So, Ive seen it from both sides, siblings & no siblings. I can guarantee you that life is better if you have someone to share the little moments with, and your first friend is usually a sibling. I actually feel sorry for you that you never got to (and from what I can tell, def don't want to) experience that.
What would you do if your parents told you tmrw that they were having another kid (or adopting?)
The sad part that if he had of listened to the overwhelming support of "don't do it dood" he would have never gotten in this mess~