yes...
Look, the only thing that's ever brought me any tangible happiness is romantic relationships. I just feel so much better. And I hate that. I hate that the only thing in my life that makes me feel like it's worth living is something I must rely on someone else for. It makes it especially bad after breakups.
Yes.
While I was fortunate enough to have it happen to my non-dominant hand instead of my dominant, this is entirely relatable to me: Before my arthritis diagnosis my left hand's range of motion at one point reached "Approximately 5°. And if you're about to ask which direction, the answer in all cases is 'Yes'", its maximum lift / grip "About how much would you say a pen weighs?" Here's hoping you get things sorted out!
It should hopefully clear itself up with time and anti-inflammatories. I have a physio appointment for unrelated reasons tomorrow so I'll see if she can have a look at it. Right now I'm mostly unbelievably bored. It doesn't help that my well of "can keep doing this" is practically empty from the pandemic (where "don't keep doing it" isn't an option), so I'm constantly tempted to go "fuck you, wrist, if you're going to keep hurting, I'll just not bother trying to be nice to you." Which... is not a great idea.
I don't trust 99% of people in this world, that has caused people to believe it's all my fault for so much failed kinship, which further makes me lose trust, because there aren't many shoulders to to lean on, and they form their little in-groups with even more people you cannot trust, or even hate and undermine you, or your importance. The minute someone I considered at least an acquaintance starts interacting with someone who I have problems with, I pretty much don't expect to talk to them much longer. And yes, the pattern thing is very real, because of the current state of people in this world, so predictability is quite accurate. As stupid as it sounds, when you talk to someone, let's say, on a forum, they used to interact with your posts, then you start finding that they start giving the thumbs up/likes on posts from people you don't exactly get along with, and don't really engage just a little anymore, it probably means they heard some things about you from others, and/or stopped being by your side, but are too afraid to tell you upfront, so you end up looking like the "psycho" for confronting them. However, since I know how predictable people are, I just let it be.
Literally after I posted this a new chat was made oop
Aight they're in a bad state emotionally from unrelated reasons (mostly the copyright stuff I mentioned), I was just the last straw. We've worked things out, and they're taking a hiatus for a while.
I haven't seen many people who don't believe in mental illness, however, I've seen a lot of instances of those who do not take it seriously, downplay it, use it as a weapon against the sufferer(s), and/or think the sufferers are just making excuses, and think they are merely unavailing to this world.