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ZalexZTK

Active Member
Wanting to go back to work after a much needed break. Looking around for jobs that aren't my last one even though that's a guaranteed job. Only job within biking distance is to clean hotel rooms. I know what you freaks and geeks do in those things. Going back and forth between wanting to call the old workplace and take my job back and looking for jobs, failing to find any nearby and defaulting back into wanting to call the old place back. At the very least it's the only problem left in my life that needs immediate action.
 

Pomorek

Antelope-Addicted Hyena
I suspect that many would say this doesn't belong to the vent thread, but for me it does. I discovered what my dream job would be. With the level of certainty that I never had before about anything else. So what's wrong about it, you ask? Well, I'm 37 already, this would require at least 3 years of intense engineering studies, and there's no practical way I can start said studies in any predictable near future.
 
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O.D.D.

Guest
Not EVERYTHING needs to be connected to wifi. Fridges, coffee machines etc do not need internet access. Anyone who's played Megaman Battle Network knows this is a bad idea.
Not everything needs a lot of computers in it, either. Looking at you, motor vehicles.
 
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ben909

shooting at meteors
Not EVERYTHING needs to be connected to wifi. Fridges, coffee machines etc do not need internet access. Anyone who's played Megaman Battle Network knows this is a bad idea.
yes...
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lets not clog up the limmited wifi frequencies



although...
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has anyone seen the "power over Ethernet" stuff, its worse then usbc everything
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there are apperantly light bulbs controlled and powered by a wired connection
 

Tennet_G

Cup O' Depresso
Assuming I'm on the same page, those technically aren't answers. They're just ways to cope until you can find it!

What exactly do you hope to achieve in life? (Doesn't have to be work related or involve becoming famous. Could even be a bucket list!)
Look, the only thing that's ever brought me any tangible happiness is romantic relationships. I just feel so much better. And I hate that. I hate that the only thing in my life that makes me feel like it's worth living is something I must rely on someone else for. It makes it especially bad after breakups.

I don't want romance to be my only goal in life. I want to have more than that but it's really the only thing to prove worthwhile for me. I just tunnel vision on them and love them so much I completely forget who I am, and I feel so elated to be free from myself. It's euphoric to simply belong to someone and to serve their every whim and desire and be rewarded for it. Nothing ever comes close. I start enjoying things outside of relationships too when I'm in that nearly hypnotic state. It's where I first picked up drawing and writing as a hobby. It's how I got into working out and staying in shape more. It's how I began to actually function normally.

I don't want this to be my life. Chasing after someone, building myself up, just for it to come crashing down when they inevitably leave. I have such a parasitic relationship and I cannot for the life of me, bring myself to act or do such a thing until I straighten myself out. I want to stop being so hurt and so hopeless. I don't want coping mechanisms, I just want a straight and simple answer on how I can just be happy by myself. I've been told so many times the way I build relationships is wrong. I've been told I am overly dependent and I am burdensome. I have been told I have an unhealthy mindset and that I need to fix things. But no one ever tells me how to fix any of it. They just point out what's wrong and expect me to understand how to fix my behavior.

Feelings, the bane of my existence. The very core of all my issues. The immoveable object which I try to bury, hide, fight, and now, change. I want to change my feelings. I want to change the core of who I am. I don't want to be this lovelorn piece of trash which cannot function at all outside of a relationship. I don't want to keep saying the same things over and over again. I'm out of options here and I'm too tired to do anything more. If I follow my feelings blindly, I'll just become someone who never gets anything done and end up hurting people. I want to be whole without the need for outside love. I want to be able to rely on myself to bring happiness into my life. No matter what I do though, until I find romance, I cannot bring love to myself. And I want a solution, not coping mechanisms. I want to change who I am at the deepest point of myself, I want to change who I am subconsciously so I won't need to feel this way ever again. Just.. please.. I want answer, not another coping mechanism. I am out of patience and energy for myself and I don't know how much longer I can do this for.
 

TyraWadman

The Brutally Honest Man-Child
Look, the only thing that's ever brought me any tangible happiness is romantic relationships. I just feel so much better. And I hate that. I hate that the only thing in my life that makes me feel like it's worth living is something I must rely on someone else for. It makes it especially bad after breakups.

I don't want romance to be my only goal in life. I want to have more than that but it's really the only thing to prove worthwhile for me. I just tunnel vision on them and love them so much I completely forget who I am, and I feel so elated to be free from myself. It's euphoric to simply belong to someone and to serve their every whim and desire and be rewarded for it. Nothing ever comes close. I start enjoying things outside of relationships too when I'm in that nearly hypnotic state. It's where I first picked up drawing and writing as a hobby. It's how I got into working out and staying in shape more. It's how I began to actually function normally.

I don't want this to be my life. Chasing after someone, building myself up, just for it to come crashing down when they inevitably leave. I have such a parasitic relationship and I cannot for the life of me, bring myself to act or do such a thing until I straighten myself out. I want to stop being so hurt and so hopeless. I don't want coping mechanisms, I just want a straight and simple answer on how I can just be happy by myself. I've been told so many times the way I build relationships is wrong. I've been told I am overly dependent and I am burdensome. I have been told I have an unhealthy mindset and that I need to fix things. But no one ever tells me how to fix any of it. They just point out what's wrong and expect me to understand how to fix my behavior.

Feelings, the bane of my existence. The very core of all my issues. The immoveable object which I try to bury, hide, fight, and now, change. I want to change my feelings. I want to change the core of who I am. I don't want to be this lovelorn piece of trash which cannot function at all outside of a relationship. I don't want to keep saying the same things over and over again. I'm out of options here and I'm too tired to do anything more. If I follow my feelings blindly, I'll just become someone who never gets anything done and end up hurting people. I want to be whole without the need for outside love. I want to be able to rely on myself to bring happiness into my life. No matter what I do though, until I find romance, I cannot bring love to myself. And I want a solution, not coping mechanisms. I want to change who I am at the deepest point of myself, I want to change who I am subconsciously so I won't need to feel this way ever again. Just.. please.. I want answer, not another coping mechanism. I am out of patience and energy for myself and I don't know how much longer I can do this for.

Things like this tend to be iffy because there's so much more that needs to be discussed, especially since not every answer ends up being the same for everyone.

I have some 'answers' on how to begin a routine on becoming that better version of yourself, but they will be long term and will most likely be hard to notice right away. I would also have to spend time learning more about you!

If you would like to humor me sometime, maybe we could start a conversation and possibly I could learn something about you that you may have never noticed before?
 

Punji

Vaskebjørn
I really hate music with excessively repetitive lyrics.

If the entire song is just one phrase over and over, it's not a song.
 

Punji

Vaskebjørn
Aw, even Boney M?
Yes. :mad:

Where is the passion? Where is the meaning and inspiration? It's just lazy and awful song "writing."

I could do better by simply repeating two phrases in an alternating pattern. And people made a lot of money off that?
 

linkmaster647

I shall keep the beats
Well, dunno if anything will help for now but...
I'm just so tired to be alone, I want to have someone to care and love me (couple wise)...
I'm constantly depressed over it and as well, I'm not really the social type, I'm shy...
I dunno if I'll ever find someone and well stay with them but as a start I don't even know where to look or how to look for it...
I just getting back from yet another breakup and I feel like I'm crumbling down, I just want to be loved, get attention, affection, hug, etc...
I'm getting really desperate to just get affection...
I think it's been the 3rd time it fails and I just want to find one that will stay with me...
 

quoting_mungo

Well-Known Member
Looks like unless it magically clears up in the next 8-12 hours, I’ll be calling the dr’s office about my wrist - tomorrow will be day 7 of wrist pain. It’s frustrating to realize how few things you can actually do with only your non-dominant hand, and even that I’m trying to be careful with because right before this wrist started to give me grief my left hand was complaining about me WASD-ing too hard. Hell, just driving to/from the woods to pick mushrooms yesterday was pushing what my right wrist is really up for.
 

Attaman

"I say we forget this business and run."
Looks like unless it magically clears up in the next 8-12 hours, I’ll be calling the dr’s office about my wrist - tomorrow will be day 7 of wrist pain. It’s frustrating to realize how few things you can actually do with only your non-dominant hand, and even that I’m trying to be careful with because right before this wrist started to give me grief my left hand was complaining about me WASD-ing too hard. Hell, just driving to/from the woods to pick mushrooms yesterday was pushing what my right wrist is really up for.
While I was fortunate enough to have it happen to my non-dominant hand instead of my dominant, this is entirely relatable to me: Before my arthritis diagnosis my left hand's range of motion at one point reached "Approximately 5°. And if you're about to ask which direction, the answer in all cases is 'Yes'", its maximum lift / grip "About how much would you say a pen weighs?" Here's hoping you get things sorted out!
 
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O.D.D.

Guest
Tired of dealing with shit I can't control or otherwise do anything about. Next person to scold me for being a control freak gets defenestrated. I'm perfectly aware of what I am and I'm that way for a reason. I don't trust you, I don't trust your motives and every time I let my guard down I get screwed over. The pattern is pretty fucking clear by now.
 
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quoting_mungo

Well-Known Member
While I was fortunate enough to have it happen to my non-dominant hand instead of my dominant, this is entirely relatable to me: Before my arthritis diagnosis my left hand's range of motion at one point reached "Approximately 5°. And if you're about to ask which direction, the answer in all cases is 'Yes'", its maximum lift / grip "About how much would you say a pen weighs?" Here's hoping you get things sorted out!
It should hopefully clear itself up with time and anti-inflammatories. I have a physio appointment for unrelated reasons tomorrow so I'll see if she can have a look at it. Right now I'm mostly unbelievably bored. It doesn't help that my well of "can keep doing this" is practically empty from the pandemic (where "don't keep doing it" isn't an option), so I'm constantly tempted to go "fuck you, wrist, if you're going to keep hurting, I'll just not bother trying to be nice to you." Which... is not a great idea.

I'm so sorry about your arthritis. Degenerative disease is the worst. :(
 
stupid rant about unimportant stuff.

I’m sick of trying MMOs where “you can totally be a furry!!” only to find out they mean normal humans with ears and a tail. Laziest furry bait ever. And the ones where the males are furry and the females are humanoid are the worst. *cough cough* example: Yordles. *cough*. What evolutionary or biological reason would there be for the males and females to be so different? Obviously it’s so normies can sexualize them without having to feel weird about it.

It’s just infuriating to me how some think slapping a tail and ears on an anime girl is adequate furry bait and we should consume.
 

JacobFloofWoof

Metal Misanthrope
Tired of dealing with shit I can't control or otherwise do anything about. Next person to scold me for being a control freak gets defenestrated. I'm perfectly aware of what I am and I'm that way for a reason. I don't trust you, I don't trust your motives and every time I let my guard down I get screwed over. The pattern is pretty fucking clear by now.
I don't trust 99% of people in this world, that has caused people to believe it's all my fault for so much failed kinship, which further makes me lose trust, because there aren't many shoulders to to lean on, and they form their little in-groups with even more people you cannot trust, or even hate and undermine you, or your importance. The minute someone I considered at least an acquaintance starts interacting with someone who I have problems with, I pretty much don't expect to talk to them much longer. And yes, the pattern thing is very real, because of the current state of people in this world, so predictability is quite accurate. As stupid as it sounds, when you talk to someone, let's say, on a forum, they used to interact with your posts, then you start finding that they start giving the thumbs up/likes on posts from people you don't exactly get along with, and don't really engage just a little anymore, it probably means they heard some things about you from others, and/or stopped being by your side, but are too afraid to tell you upfront, so you end up looking like the "psycho" for confronting them. However, since I know how predictable people are, I just let it be.
 

The_biscuits_532

Sneaky rainforest kitty
I think I might've killed a writing collaboration project with over-enthusiasm.

I was in the chat around half an hour ago and off handedly noted a common spelling error, aaand it turns out that's a major insecurity of the main author.

And now the chat's closed. Not even the copyright dispute last week did that.

In retrospect I feel like a huge ass, and not only for that. I've been very enthusiastic about this project and I feel I may have been too forceful as a consequence. I kept having all these ideas and suggestions and I should've just let the author do what they intended, and kept my hands off.

I'm going to let them have some time, and then tomorrow morning I'm going to write an open apology on the backup community that was made (from the copyright dispute), regardless of what happens overnight.
 

The_biscuits_532

Sneaky rainforest kitty
I think I might've killed a writing collaboration project with over-enthusiasm.

I was in the chat around half an hour ago and off handedly noted a common spelling error, aaand it turns out that's a major insecurity of the main author.

And now the chat's closed. Not even the copyright dispute last week did that.

In retrospect I feel like a huge ass, and not only for that. I've been very enthusiastic about this project and I feel I may have been too forceful as a consequence. I kept having all these ideas and suggestions and I should've just let the author do what they intended, and kept my hands off.

I'm going to let them have some time, and then tomorrow morning I'm going to write an open apology on the backup community that was made (from the copyright dispute), regardless of what happens overnight.
Literally after I posted this a new chat was made oop

We'll see how this progresses
 

Khione Frostfang

Moody Leopardess - Approach with caution!
Don't you just fucking love it when your friend gets you killed in Dead by Daylight? Just happened to me.

My friend was running from Cuntface (Ghostface), I was trying to work on a gen, as I was 1 hook from death, he brings the fucker AT me, I hide then I get downed and hooked. Thanks man.

He's pulled this shit a few times, and I get so sick of being backstabbed. Seriously dude, I'm on your side.
 

Firuthi Dragovic

Gamer Dragon, former speedrunner
So I'm going to have to put off my original goal of having all my student loans paid off this year.

Mainly because I'm reaching the point where I actually need to move out of the house. And may even need to do my own car-shopping soon.

I was so close, too.

I still think my family's underestimating how much my disorder is going to complicate these processes, but we'll see.
 

Khione Frostfang

Moody Leopardess - Approach with caution!
I do hate those who don't believe in mental illness, like seriosuly, it DOES exist, it's existed for a fuck load of years, but it's more understandable now, than it was back in the 1800 or so. Not everyone wants to have a mental illness, it just can happen.

I've had depression since childhood, and now as an adult, it really still does bring me to my knees, most days. Now with this virus still going on, it's made it slightly worse because I don't want to risk going out, even though I'm double vaccinated, because people over here don't listen, and do what they please, thus why this virus won't go away and die off.

Mental illness is a pain in the ass, some can be hard to treat, but don't give in, don't let it control you, if I were to let mine fully take me over, I wouldn't be alive. Keep fighting it, it's an entity, but you are in control. I still fight mine very day, some days I have really good ones, when I do have really shitty days, my mind fills with dread, where I get such awful thoughts on what I want to do myself (not good things), but I remind myself that the thoughts are not me, they're just the depression talking.

I hope it goes well for you, Firuthi, mental illness and phsycial illnesses can be a real dick, but fight through the pain, and stand tall and proud, adding a notch to your belt each time you give either condition a kick in the ass.
 

TyraWadman

The Brutally Honest Man-Child
I'm finally done work for two days.
Let's sit down and start scratching things off my to-do list--
*forgets to blink and eyes dry out within the hour*
......Guess I'll just be bored and go to bed. TnT
 
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