*hugs back and squeezes hard**hugs you tightly*
I understand that feeling. Something I found helps is taking some time every day at a certain time and just do something to help you relax.
I try to listen to binaural beats type music and stuff, but by the time I'm trying to get to sleep, it just sounds like irritating noise, like a catchy song being played over in my head, and doesn't relax me. I feel like you gotta have a certain mindset for certain things to help, even with medication to fully take effect. Sometimes being stuck with a negative and chaotic sort of perception or focused on a feeling at a specific moment causes nothing to really help. The issue is, it's hard to beat the subconscious that's holding these feelings in place, as if these feelings are kind of automatic on a conscious level, even though the manual switch is still there, just very hard to find and engage. I've had moments where my mind would be in complete chaos, unable to feel comfortable, and then something came over me just like a flick of a switch, and had this sudden relief, but it's getting harder and harder as time goes on for that switch to work. The CBT and meditation type tools I've been given when I was seeing therapists feel like a chore, and impossible to do with how bad this anxiety has gotten, and I keep forgetting, like my attention span, the chaos throughout my mind and body, and other interests that occupy my mind doesn't leave space or the ability to try and succeed in doing them.
Anxiety and panic disorder really is a debilitating thing to have, it's not just "being a little nervous", it's basically what people imagine hell to be on earth, because that's the essence of it, the feelings it brings mentally and physically. If anyone ever has even a hint of anxiety, just try to get the best help you can, now!