More of a time to light an Advent candle than put up Christmas decorations in my opinion. 'Course, I've always been something of a Scrooge McRacc.It's the first Sunday of Advent. Here, that's the traditional day to put out your Christmas decorations.
... Damn. Now I realize I forgot all about the Christmas shop window decor Sunday event thing today. Aww.
Might have to do with the start of Hanukkah, but I will respect Google in that they actually bring awareness to some historical and important people and holidays, unlike Twitter trends which literally makes up random holidays, and puts them out there as if they're federally observed and collectively celebrated.
You're not the only one with a bad father. Just don't be like me and let it cause you to second guess yourself as a spouse/parent with your own family if/when you choose to have one. I'm constantly asking my kids of they're happy and questioning my own worth as a parent. I fluctuate the extremes of always present or never there because of trying to correct with them what went wrong with my father. I was lucky my mom got a divorce.I hate my father, I hate how my pc took almost 12 fucking hours downloading a game just to not be able to run the motherfucker game, and I hate feeling pressure!
I hate my Father just because of all the bad things he did!
-He never took care of my mom and my siblings died because of that piece of shit, and never got to met them
-he forced my mom to quit her job just because of his machism and "you shouldn't work" stupid thing.... Now he earns a missery, it seems like he wanted us to be poor and have a tight month budget on purpose
-he stealed my mom's jewelry to get money after making her quit
-he has been always uncaring and he's always at work
(All of this before I was even born or when I was innocent and forgiveful)
-he's aggressive and UUUUGK!!!!
Probably today we would be living in a better place without a stupid president who letted covid enter our country and almost killed persons for trying to enforce the quarantine parameters as the oms itself recommended, cartels and other shits
and probably I'd have a lab and a house, would have gotten to travel the world before this damn pandemic and get to met this awesome world without losing fucking valuable time but, nooooooo
he never dignified to sign up my motherfucking passport for me.... He forced my mom to stop talking to her family, our family and.... AAAAAAAGGGHHHH!!!
If my father was gone by tomorrow, I'd not be sad, I'd get happy to not have a toxic roach around anymore
I get always mad at these november dates because, I just got hitten by this "you gotta know the truth" story thing suddenly thrown at my face at October of 2013 and my heart was broken in the worse way possible: suffering the loss of the siblings I always wanted my whole life, knowing they existed actually but.... Not anymore
I have been accumulating this and agghk!!
I just gotta vent properly, not just partially anymore as I've been doing, so I'll say it straight: I hate my father, not because of a "teen rebellion". But because my father is the worst human being on the planet.
I needed to take that dark vent outta my chest...
What makes you think that? You know you're competent and very able to do the job, don't let anxiety get in your way. Didn't fight all this way for nothing! Once it starts it will be fine.Now that I'm about to start my new job - I really don't think that I have it in me to actually do well here.
I also wish that after uploading new videos on YouTube at least once a week for more than a year, adding custom thumbnails and using similar keywords to other channels in this niche genre, would yield more than 10 views per video. Watching my dreams die slowly in front of me is disheartening.
What makes you think that? You know you're competent and very able to do the job, don't let anxiety get in your way. Didn't fight all this way for nothing! Once it starts it will be fine.
What are your videos about? Shouldn't give up on them I think, even if Youtube's shitty algorithm has to fight you every step of the way. It takes time I think, and you're clearly putting in the effort to do well. Might try to put yourself out there and advertise your stuff on different platforms and in different places? If you haven't already of course.
Connor, the only reason I'm dignifying this with a response is because it's just THAT dangerous and stupid to try and guilt people into this kind of thing. If you cannot take an argument prima facie for consideration and counterargument, without the contextual knowledge of who EXACTLY is making it, either the argument didn't need to be made because it's someone's PERSONAL bugaboo and thus can be summarily ignored as axe-grinding that the arguer needs to deal with on their own... or you're looking for the easy out of argumentum ad hominem.I'm not really sure why some people feel the need to use so-called "alt accounts" on social media, like here.
Honestly..... I've had the same single account - on this website in particular, going on nine years...... and, it's been that one account, only.
And so... when ever one uses an alt account, the first thing I gotta wonder is: what is that person hiding.... that he/she feels that they need to use one?..... and, the second thing I gotta wonder is: who this *really* is, that I'm speaking to? Which - can make things downright confusing to me.
And so, it often tells me that one: I'm dealing with a phoney, of some sort...... two: I'm dealing with some sort of liar.... or three: just a prankster out there, who's trying to rattle someone's chain.... or four: all the above. ☺
Would it really be that hard for some people - to just be honest, about who they are?
► I always say, that: if someone has the personal tenacity to stand by one's own belief systems, and one's own arguments - then.... one shouldn't need an alt account, to being with..... eh?
► And so, when one uses an alt account..... (first and foremost): I consider that a straight-up lie.... as, you're mis-representing to me and others, who you really are..... and - it also tells me that: you may not actually stand by and believe, most of the arguments that you may make..... simply because a particular user is using a so-called "throw away" account, as some sort of cover, (for themselves).
So please..... do us all a favor - and use your real user name, for goodness sakes.