The forums have always been a place for me to come and just be ya know? For the most part everybody is super nice and welcoming, stave a few bad apples and a bunch of trolls. It helped to keep me sane, to help me learn about myself and who I want to become and for the most part is a huge boon in my life.
Through my time on the forums there have been many times where I have mediated people who are being less than savory to one another, where im in DMs with a person trying to stop them from hurting themselves, trying to help however I can be it minor or large issues. Only the problem now seems to be that the drama is getting deep, and its getting to me. I left for a short period because it was getting to be too much for even me to wrap my mind around. This safe place was safe no longer, that hurt. So I just left.
I didn't really have the plan on coming back, but here I am. I always wanted this place to be safe for anybody to talk and just have a good time, an escape from the shit realities we come from, and it was loosing that. At one point I even wanted to become a moderator to do my best to shape this community to make it inclusive.
The saying when life gives you lemons make lemonade. Well... faf is a turd especially right now. And its going to take all of us to make it just that little bit better, but together we will make this the damned shiniest turd ever.
I will be on and off for a while, especially with my job and college, but im gonna start the shining now. I want everybody here to be nice to one another, be kind, be supportive even if you dont fully agree with somebody's point of view, because at the end of the day, we're all people, with life's, with experiences, and with our own problems.
Thats my peace, thank you for listening to my long posts yet again :3