Xx_Whimsie_xX
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What do you do when you're feeling depressed and suicidal, but you have no one to turn to because you're a loser who has no friends?
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Xx_Whimsie_xX
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I can't go on there because I'm using a 3DS, anything with too many pictures make it flip out and not work...
Caden_The_Dingo
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I'm always happy to help. (I feel like a psychiatrist since I deal with a lot of IRL problems for my friends.) If you want someone to talk to, message me on Skype or add me on Steam. (Steam guarantees a faster response.) Other than, try family.
Tableside6
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There's always someone in the world you can talk to. You can talk to me if you'd like. Just know that there's someone out there for you.
Xx_Whimsie_xX
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Not a troll, I actually am thinking of killing myself...
Thought to try asking about it before I actually do something.
Thought to try asking about it before I actually do something.
Xx_Whimsie_xX
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My family just brush me off, saying things like "You just want attention, you don't really feel that way."
Tableside6
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Death isn't the answer. You were given life, you should embrace living. I really feel bad for you. I know what it's like not having any friends.
Xx_Whimsie_xX
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Living is almost a chore. I'm bi-polar with no way of getting meds for it. I'm just a big mess as a whole. Worthless...
But in all seriousness, I have no friends irl either. Well, I did but they moved away.
Depression runs in my family; frankly I'm sick of this world but what is even more baser than a need to die is a need to survive.
Honestly, and there will be plenty of people who disagree with this, but just having the option in the back of your mind helps ENORMOUSLY.
Life gets to be too much all too often, and I for one can't just ignore it or find a way to glorify suffering so I'm somehow better off when I'm really not *ahem*american dream*ahem*
You don't need a gun in a safe deposit box, just a reassurance that, if it gets to hard, you can always 'refund' your life.
Fuck the cops: the US government violates the ultimate and most sacred right of the individual with it's disgusting fines on the 'crime' of suicide.
Looking at horribly dubbed hentai or shitty creepypastas helps too.
I've had maybe two or three worthless psychiatrists in my life, but hey, different strokes.
If you want to go that route, I'm not saying it'll never work.
You could probably find some free ones, especially if you're at college.
Just count your lucky stars if you find one that isn't some incomprehensible dolt straight from china like the one at my school... augh...
Though to be fair, for the record, she was more of a career advisor as oppose to a counselor.
She still sucked at her job, even if she spoke fluent english sans-accent.
Finding a community online has helped me through a lot o the bullshit.
FA forums might float your boat but I prefer more intimate settings.
Figuratively speaking:
Wait & bleed.
Doesn't matter if you've got razors dug in your arms or not:
Wait & bleed.
Depression runs in my family; frankly I'm sick of this world but what is even more baser than a need to die is a need to survive.
Honestly, and there will be plenty of people who disagree with this, but just having the option in the back of your mind helps ENORMOUSLY.
Life gets to be too much all too often, and I for one can't just ignore it or find a way to glorify suffering so I'm somehow better off when I'm really not *ahem*american dream*ahem*
You don't need a gun in a safe deposit box, just a reassurance that, if it gets to hard, you can always 'refund' your life.
Fuck the cops: the US government violates the ultimate and most sacred right of the individual with it's disgusting fines on the 'crime' of suicide.
Looking at horribly dubbed hentai or shitty creepypastas helps too.
I've had maybe two or three worthless psychiatrists in my life, but hey, different strokes.
If you want to go that route, I'm not saying it'll never work.
You could probably find some free ones, especially if you're at college.
Just count your lucky stars if you find one that isn't some incomprehensible dolt straight from china like the one at my school... augh...
Though to be fair, for the record, she was more of a career advisor as oppose to a counselor.
She still sucked at her job, even if she spoke fluent english sans-accent.
Finding a community online has helped me through a lot o the bullshit.
FA forums might float your boat but I prefer more intimate settings.
Figuratively speaking:
Wait & bleed.
Doesn't matter if you've got razors dug in your arms or not:
Wait & bleed.
burakki
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I'm not sure of your age and such, but assuming you're in the school system, any possibility you can talk to faculty? And if you're family brushes you off, try to show them you're not seeking attention.
This. Exercise does wonders when i feel awful.
I disagree with this notion because it implies life is a gift of some kind and therefore it should be "embraced." It also has a nasty connotation to pro-lifers which I abhor for different reasons. Life simply is. Who are we to say it was "given" or "taken" from us? Life just happens: wham-bam-thankyouma'am-shityougotmepregnantmotherfucker. Follow whatever god or big book of jewish fairytales you want but the truth is, there is zero evidence for any kind of "goal" in life, let alone life in itself being a goal. We simply have it and may/may not be able to decide how we use it (for the more positive approach to this ultimate lack of meaning, look up existentialism).
EDIT:quote fail
Xx_Whimsie_xX
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I'm not in college, my ass of a mother made sure of that.
I don't know where else to go, other than to just down the stash of painkillers I've stockpiled...
In the area I live, you can't get a job unless you have experience or a college degree, of which I have neither.
I was born with a hormonal problem called PCOS; Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. I can't get rid of it, I can only treat it. Some of the symptoms are being overweight, irregular cycles, abnormal hair growth all over the body, depression, etc.
Tableside6
Rock
Well theoreticlly, that's correct, but it's not a good thing if an innocent person dies, is it?
burakki
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I know it was mentioned before, but try to atleast receive some exercise. It may also seem ridiculous and not likely, but have you ever thought of moving somewhere far away?
Xx_Whimsie_xX
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I'm 19, I graduated in 2011.
My family couldn't care less about me, they're too busy getting high or drunk. Sometimes both.
Xx_Whimsie_xX
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With what? I don't have my license or a car, or a job to pay for the move.
Well as far as the job market goes, that's nothing new.
How old are you?
I was in a spot like that years ago with no job record to my credit.
The key thing here is, and it's a shitty key, but you have to accept that you are dirt.
Take the most basic of jobs first.
You think you're good enough for retail?
Nuh-uh.
Neighbors are good because they always need something done.
Plus they make great resources to call back later when you're writing out a new application.
Being a homie is of an often under-discussed importance.
The better your rep in your immediate community, the better your chances for getting a job there and further beyond.
Even a fat antisocial fuck like me, who barely says a word to anyone most of the time: sometimes that in itself is a good baseline.
Just throw on the charisma every so often, even if you cringe to think of something.
PCOS sounds awful and gross,but like you said, nothing you can do about it.
Some people have GERD, others have missing limbs.
They adapt.
If all else fails, well, there is always that option.
Just don't expect death to be a friendly guy.
The reality of it, when you really look it in the face, is unlike any other fear in the history of mankind.
A very abstract, immediate, all-encompassing fear on par with Lovecraftian horrors beyond the comprehension of man.
Okay, maybe I'm overselling it there, but I'm serious.
Sometimes, that very real brush with death is sobering enough to reconsider.
How old are you?
I was in a spot like that years ago with no job record to my credit.
The key thing here is, and it's a shitty key, but you have to accept that you are dirt.
Take the most basic of jobs first.
You think you're good enough for retail?
Nuh-uh.
Neighbors are good because they always need something done.
Plus they make great resources to call back later when you're writing out a new application.
Being a homie is of an often under-discussed importance.
The better your rep in your immediate community, the better your chances for getting a job there and further beyond.
Even a fat antisocial fuck like me, who barely says a word to anyone most of the time: sometimes that in itself is a good baseline.
Just throw on the charisma every so often, even if you cringe to think of something.
PCOS sounds awful and gross,but like you said, nothing you can do about it.
Some people have GERD, others have missing limbs.
They adapt.
If all else fails, well, there is always that option.
Just don't expect death to be a friendly guy.
The reality of it, when you really look it in the face, is unlike any other fear in the history of mankind.
A very abstract, immediate, all-encompassing fear on par with Lovecraftian horrors beyond the comprehension of man.
Okay, maybe I'm overselling it there, but I'm serious.
Sometimes, that very real brush with death is sobering enough to reconsider.
Zydala
Kisses for everyone!
Whimsie, I wanted to die once too, and I almost did throw myself in front of traffic to do it. But I didn't, I found help as best I could, lived through it, and I'm happy I did. You never know where life is going to take you, and you never know who you'll meet or where you'll go. Don't trick yourself into scripting the rest of your life and being a self-fulfilling prophecy.
If you can, find ways to overcome your bouts of depression the best you can. Exercise does help, even just walking. When I was at my worst, walking would do wonders. Look into reading groups at the library, see if there's any support groups you can join and get to by yourself. If there's programs for assisted healthcare in your area, look into it and see if you can't get yourself a check-up - without your parents if that's what it takes. Do this for yourself and don't bother talking to your parents if they won't help, you have to take care of yourself first. Do whatever you can. Don't give up, I believe in you, and want to see you get better.
If you can, find ways to overcome your bouts of depression the best you can. Exercise does help, even just walking. When I was at my worst, walking would do wonders. Look into reading groups at the library, see if there's any support groups you can join and get to by yourself. If there's programs for assisted healthcare in your area, look into it and see if you can't get yourself a check-up - without your parents if that's what it takes. Do this for yourself and don't bother talking to your parents if they won't help, you have to take care of yourself first. Do whatever you can. Don't give up, I believe in you, and want to see you get better.
Also, moving out is a terrible idea unless you have a good job and a place that's affordable. I know that's like, well, no shit McRoz, but I've thought of moving out before and I just don't have the money. Know your limitations; it's okay to swing for the fences but know the consequences well in advance.
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