Words you never said

[LegitWaterfall]

Went real well with a guy for a year and a half.
Never a single fight, hours of silly and loving conversations, we were always there for one another, and we were the most important person in each other's lives...then life got busy and I spent less and less time away from him, and lost my feelings for him, so out of the blue I broke it off. I was panicking and sick with my cold-heartedness at the time, so every excuse I used was completely wrong and painful for him. There wasn't a thing I could've said to make the situation hurt less, and I was really stupid to think that I would list my points and we'd both walk out feeling great. I'd gone into the relationship too fast and I wasn't mature enough for something so serious, and I didn't do anything about that at the time; I temporarily ruined myself and someone else, and I still beat myself for it. Not as bad, but still.

 

[Willow]

I honestly wish I would have flat out broke it off with my ex instead of giving her the silent treatment in the latter half of our relationship. part of it wasn't my fault though and granted I did try and salvage the relationship, but after having met up only once and hanging out for a bit I realized it really wasn't worth it. but part of me also would have been kind of guilty because like..she didn't give me any legit reason to leave her other than, to put it bluntly, be boring. which I know is a bad way of thinking, since being in a dead end relationship is a valid reason to break it off with someone but I dunno..

on a more positive note, I really wish that I could tell my best friend more often how much he means to me and that he is loved. but there isn't a good way to do that without it sounding fake or being awkward. at least to me there isn't :/

 

[Nobel]

"I, for some reason am standing before you and others. I for some reason continue to walk on this place called earth. I was weak and lack intelligence. But I proceed to move forward. I have done nothing but make people upset for my presence. From how I speak,think,looked, and acted. But even then I continued. For days I sit and think. I can't stop thinking. From then I became ill. Then made others ill. I know I am not perfect. I know I'm not the most intelligent nor charming. I knew that I was not prepared for the trials that lied ahead of me. But I continue to keep moving and I think to myself for what cost. Then I met people who I call friends which gave me hope. I was happy. I felt like I mattered to people and my opinions mattered. I felt cared for out of the house. I no longer hide in my home where I felt safe. Then I began to dare and find new challenges to accomplish. I compete to be better. To make myself better. Now I know my goal, to become better then what I was before. In every single attempt"

 

[Nobel]

I needed this thx.

 

[WolfNightV4X1]

"Stop it! Leave him alone you fucking asshole! We're on the second floor and its crowded! Youre going to hurt people! Get out of here and dont start shit like that!"

"You have (a) nice...[insert compliment]"

"Are you okay? Do you need a hug?"

"I hate you"

"Hi, I need math tutoring can you help me?"

"Why are you trying to hold my hand now? You stopped liking me, and I kept seeking you out, but you ignored me. Now Im over you, your chances are up"

"Dude...you're either saying "I love you" to mess with me and see how I react while your goons laugh at my expense or you have reeeeeaaaaallly bad tact in expressing your feelings. Either way Im not an idiot"

"No, what makes you think Im a lesbian? Im curious"

"Shut the hell up! Dont talk about me behind my back! Dont make accusations about me! Bitch!"

"...just because we can both draw and he's a boy and Im a female and we're both odd-ones out doesnt mean we are romantically compatible"

"Hi hello, how are you? How was your day? Wonderful weather. How was your weekend?"

"Im Val and I love animals and art and all things creative want to discuss something fun?"

"Im quiet because I have social anxiety, that's why"

 

[Soul-Wolf]

Another one came to me. There was this guy in college, whatever you call the guy that basically runs residence I forget the title. Anyway he liked me and thought highly of me and all but I lost count of how many times he'd just ask out of the blue "why do you always look sad?" and I'd always say I'm not or pass it off as something else. I kinda wish I'd given some honest answers now because he probably genuinely gave a shit.

 

[DragonTheWolf]

From time to time, I think of my ex and how he just left me without explanation why. He just told me he doesn't want to see me anymore, and just kind of disappeared. He even changed his number. I loved him, and I always wanted to ask him just why he did it. Sure, I have someone else now that cares for me, but I just want that answer. It can be as simple as "I hate your guts", I don't even care. I just want to know, you know. I couldn't ask him there on the spot because it just happened so fast, and I was really shocked, so I just couldn't find the words, but I want to ask him. I just don't think I'll ever get the chance to at this point. It's been years, and who knows where he is by now or what happened to him.

 

[Rassah]

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[Coyote Club]

" Woman. You are as beautiful as your mind is sick. If you go get help I'm willing to walk through the healing process side-by-side with you and save what's left of 'us'."

-also-

"I just wanted to tell you one last time before you go that I know what is happening is out of your hands and we'll be okay. You mean the world to me. You are more than the sun, moon and stars. You are more than the air I breathe and all the pleasure-bound comforts of this world. Without you I am losing a part of me and although I'll never be completely whole again I will remember you with love and reverence to the bitter end of my time here on Earth."

 

[Soul-Wolf]

Would you get a life.

 

[Tiamat]

dongs

 

[MissFleece]

I would like to schedule an appointment please.

 

[TidesofFate]

"Where did the hair go?"

 

[Ricky]

Everything that happened in the beginning of the year that has led to me being on the streets these last few months. It's a long story I can't post here involving a meth lab, explosion, a newspaper article and Amtrak >.>

This is all about to settle though. I'm heading to a job fair and I don't think I'm going to prison anymore ^_^

 

[Moondoggy]

I like me

 

[Tao]

My life is full of unsaid things. I used to have some anger issues which I still deal with. So you can imagine I have a lot that I don't say. I have to remain calm.

 

[Strangeguy32000]

"Your son is a lazy asshole, and you are enabling his behavior by not designating serious chores for him"
My kid brother has no work ethic.

"Your forums suck, and you're a disrespectful jackass of a moderator. Please eat shit, you enormous prick"
I didn't get along with my anime club's webmaster. He was kind of an asshole.

"Get off me, you drunk bitch!"
My stepmother got drunk and got creepily close to me once. Like, crawling all over me.

"You ridiculous fucking moron! A Game Boy Advance cartridge can survive a ride through the laundry! Why the fuck would you throw it away!?"
My stepsister threw away my first copy of Mario and Luigi: Superstar Saga after it went through the wash in my pocket.

"Your classroom's lighting scheme is a bad idea, and you are a caustic individual."
I didn't like my seventh grade math teacher or her dungeon of a classroom.

"Instead of repeating these goddamn creepy mnemonic devices, why don't you teach us what these music notes FUCKING SOUND LIKE!!!"
My seventh grade general music teacher was a moron and I'm convinced he didn't actually have any practical knowledge of the subject he taught.

"If it doesn't scan, the barcode isn't reading, it doesn't mean you get the item free!"
That joke
That motherfucking joke.

If you haven't noticed, I don't like to expres my anger in public.

 

[scet]

" i dont care about this, or you, or how it will make you feel, or what it will make me feel, or if its the finale point needed to prove im just a jerk or a bad person. i Do Not Care. because from now on, i only care about what i know is best for me. i am worth more than you give me. i dont even care about my own feelings, i know i will hurt inside and its only my fault never putting my needs first. but im doing it now! i am the most important person in my life and i should be allowed to treat myself that way and enjoy getting to know myself. i want to love myself and your in the way, so im leaving"

 

[Glider]

I always wanted to say"Bazinga"

 

[PrismaKitty]

You're the reason that I've avoided making any online friends. I'm just now starting to be comfortable allowing myself to try and get to know people who I've never met face to face. And it's all your fault.
I was in high school and insecure, and you took advantage of that and blackmailed me. I knew who were but everyone else in our friend group thought I was crazy for blaming one of our own!
All those anonymous messages you sent me online sat in my stomach like rocks. Every threat you sent, every fake account you made, every time you said that I brought this upon myself, ruined my entire senior year and continue to affect me to this day! And you had the nerve to come up to me in person and pretend like it wasn't you stalking me and told me that you were going to catch the jerk who was doing this to me-
Fuck you!
Hate is a strong word, but I truly do hate you with every fiber of my being and hope you get what's coming to you, you lying sack of shit!

 

[Notkastar]

You're the reason that I've avoided making any online friends. I'm just now starting to be comfortable allowing myself to try and get to know people who I've never met face to face. And it's all your fault.
I was in high school and insecure, and you took advantage of that and blackmailed me. I knew who were but everyone else in our friend group thought I was crazy for blaming one of our own!
All those anonymous messages you sent me online sat in my stomach like rocks. Every threat you sent, every fake account you made, every time you said that I brought this upon myself, ruined my entire senior year and continue to affect me to this day! And you had the nerve to come up to me in person and pretend like it wasn't you stalking me and told me that you were going to catch the jerk who was doing this to me-
Fuck you!
Hate is a strong word, but I truly do hate you with every fiber of my being and hope you get what's coming to you, you lying sack of shit!

That...That brought up a lot of old memories; Once I Really wish I could just forget.

I still remember that black cage I felt like I was in that only a few know the coldness of. People walked by but, I felt like I couldn't and shouldn't say anything. (Pretty dumb idea when I think about it now.)
Please, Tell other about this so the same doesn't happen to them and they know what to look for!
It's the first step of breaking free from that damn cage and it let's people know that this happens and
to be careful who talk too online. Anonymity is the most dangerous thing you face in times like this.

 

[PrismaKitty]

That...That brought up a lot of old memories; Once I Really wish I could just forget.

I still remember that black cage I felt like I was in that only a few know the coldness of. People walked by but, I felt like you couldn't and shouldn't say anything. (Pretty dumb idea when I think about it now.)
Please, Tell other about this so the same doesn't happen to them and they know what to look for!
It's the first step of breaking free from that damn cage and it let's people know that this happens and
to be careful who talk too online. Anonymity is the most dangerous thing you face in times like this.

I would never wish cyberbullying/harassment on ANYONE but I'm glad that there are others who share a similar experience to me so I know that I'm not crazy. It's been a long time since I was stalked by the guy I went to high school with, but it does still affect me and my interactions with people irl and online.
I agree with you, that anyone who may be experiencing threats and harassment should tell somebody they trust. It was such a damaging experience. I lost a lot of people who I thought were my friends all because they thought I was lying and because my stalker kept bringing others into the drama. Stay safe out there and if ANYONE needs someone to talk to about something like this, I am ALWAYS open for conversation and support/advice.<3

 

[Notkastar]

I would never wish cyberbullying/harassment on ANYONE but I'm glad that there are others who share a similar experience to me so I know that I'm not crazy. It's been a long time since I was stalked by the guy I went to high school with, but it does still affect me and my interactions with people irl and online.
I agree with you, that anyone who may be experiencing threats and harassment should tell somebody they trust. It was such a damaging experience. I lost a lot of people who I thought were my friends all because they thought I was lying and because my stalker kept bringing others into the drama. Stay safe out there and if ANYONE needs someone to talk to about something like this, I am ALWAYS open for conversation and support/advice.<3

As am I, The more people aware of this the better and I'm willing to do my part to prevent this sort of thing from happening to other people.

 

[-Sliqq-]

"Thanks for making me feel like shit, fam.

I love how you told me to stand back up, spine intact, when I didn't have one. I didn't want one. I want to give all of me, not a shield and sword. But that's what you've forced me to do: suck it up, get help. Ignore my situation entirely - and make things worse.

It's not me, It's my environment and you're too stuck in yourself to see that. All of you, really.

I needed a friend, or someone to care for (just heard a crow) and all I was left to think about of I was on everybody's ignore lists.

That's why the forum isn't growing, you've forgotten causes and only avoid the effects - haphazardly at best"

> Phoenixed Forums

Sorry, I just really don't like the people there(anymore)